what I've been thinking about

I was reading Don't waste your life by John Piper and I was thinking alot. last month or so I have been feeling down. I was unsure about what I was doing in life but now I am feeling much better. I was thinking about marriage and how I never want to get married and then thinking about how thats all I used to want. I think it might be because I thought marriage was not that great any more but I was reading a book and It reminded me of how great marriage could be. So much of the time here in America marriage is so far off of what it was ment to be that I dont see what anyone would ever want to get married but I think God showed me what He wanted it to be like and it looked great and when I started thinking about how great it was I then thought about God who created marriage and how great He must be if He made such a cool thing. And then I though about how He wants a relationship with me and how much better that relationship must be the marriage so thats what I and ill see if I end up getting married or not even though I would still like to.